Hobbies; a reflection of person and their self

 I use knitting as apart time hobby. I developed this hobby when I was in depression because I heard many people say that knitting helped them a lot. I also experienced this when I was too focused on each stitch and knitting it correctly, I would not think of anything else. this would help me to forgo all the horrible memories even for some time but in doing so I did not realize that I was developing an amazing hobby and learning amazing craft. It made me realize that those who neglect the importance of art have not realized that it is the only thing in which we get comfort and way of expression whether it is through painting, song writing, poetry writing or learning crafts. Till now, I have learned to  make gloves but it is a lot of improvement for someone like me who didn't know how to stitch a button. I am proud of myself, if I'll hate on me, then who will be there to cheer for me. People only listen to you and admire you when you have achieved something or emerged as the winner but no one listens to the runner up, their story, their efforts. No one realizes that they also had the same share of struggles but were not able to achieve that by few little steps. Does this mean that they don't deserve to be appreciated or listen, they don't want sympathies they want to tell it to all and make a bold promise again to everyone to achieve this or something else again....does my thoughts make sense to you....or I am just too random. I don't know but it's all connected in my head...knitting, depression, runner up, failure, effort. But you know all this makes me continue even more stronger this time and work more hard. After all what happened I don't have any regrets because when you give your all, you know in that time and circumstances  that was the best of best that you gave. working hard never leaves you with regrets because you know deep in your heart that you were sincere to yourself and with your dream. After that one failure, you know I was afraid to dream. I didn't wanna dream or make any goal so that  I won't be hurt when it is not accomplished. But now, I have healed and am ready to dream because dreams are what make us live. This time I am going to dream, work for it, work very hard for it and achieve it. But even if I still would not be able to achieve it, I will hold my guard high this time, I will cry but I will not tear apart. Remember it you have to work hard and give your best despite caring for what the results might be and when you read it again be happy and don't cry as you always do. Be proud of yourself if you have achieved it and be happy if you lagged a few steps because remember this time your goal is far more big, rough and soul tearing. I love you....